When I was pregnant, I often wrote letters to Daisy. I have shared some of them here on this blog. After she was born, I continued to write letters to her and I now email them to a GMail account I opened in her name just before she came into the world. I love writing letters to Daisy - it's cathartic to express the depth and profoundness of my love in words that do more justice to what I feel than a hug or a handful of puffs ever could. Someday, she will understand these words and be able to read each of these letters - and hopefully she will get a sense of just how much she is loved.
Daisy's inbox has about 100 messages already:
This is the letter I wrote to her when I got to work on Tuesday. I'd been holding in some emotion after saying goodbye to her that morning so it felt good to write something when I got to my office.
hello little love,
today is tuesday and on tuesdays my heart breaks. it's my first day away from you in 6 days and it is always so, so, so hard for me to say goodbye. this morning, i got to spend a little time with you while i waited for dad to get ready for work and i held you so tight and told you i loved you over and over. i hate going to the office and leaving your sweet face behind. i tucked you into your stroller for your walk with dad and the dogs and then slipped into the doorway with my briefcase/bag in one hand and my car keys in the other and i watched your soft, rosy little face crumple like a piece of looseleaf paper. you started to cry and i had to force myself out the door so i didn't cry too. i could hear your screams through the door as i rushed to unlock and get into the car and i immediately jacked up the volume on the radio so i couldn't hear it anymore. as i drove away i had to take deep breaths and remind myself that just 8 hours separate us - it could be so much worse.
i am so sorry i can't be with you every day. i am working hard so i can make money to send you to good schools and show you the world. i wish more than anything that you could come with me to work and that we could spend every waking minute together but just know - always, always know - that my heart stays with you wherever you are.
i hope your day is wonderful you sweet thing,
Do you write to your kids? For parents of very small children, consider opening an email account so you can share photos, videos and anecdotes. I love capturing little moments like Nick tickling Daisy into hysterics over his shoulder and sending them to her email so she can watch them down the road. I also use the app Qeepsake, which creates an online journal for kids. Qeepsake texts me a question about Daisy, I text back a response and an entry is automatically added to Daisy's private journal. This is another easy way to keep track of her milestones and developing personality. I may never have enough spare time to make a baby book, but, my kids will never doubt how much they were loved and celebrated from day one ☺